Sunday, July 19, 2009

Miss you, really..........




After all these days, after all the media around the world discussing, memorizing, mourning over this legendary man in the history, I still can't take the idea that Michael Joseph Jackson, the man who should always exist in our lives, has passed away without any alarm, into my mind.



I didn't know Michael Jackson well, to be honest, even till now, Michael still holds his favorite mysterious image to the world, and of course, to me.


Before his shocking death, I have never tried to deeply understand this man.
Although I've known he is an amazing music artist, I didn't know how many great things he had done to this world, his loved ones, and the things he really cared about.

Until today, after I've sit there in front of a TV watching the news reviewing over and over again the video of him lying deadly on a litter in an ambulance leaving the driveway of his home, the big gate, the crowds, shouting fans outside the house, the coverage..........I can't stop crying.







I feel like a part of me has been also taken away as our Peter Pan left us.
And it's a really strange emotion and experience for me.
Maybe some think I'm a bit overreacted, but my dear friends, after all these years, after I had somehow been foolish guided by rubbish tabloid reports, after I cried over Michael's death, after I tried hard to understand Michael Jackson, in addition to his great music, I found out I was one of those ignorant people who judged Michael out of nowhere.


The evil press teased him as Jacko just because he suffered from vitiligo, a rare skin disease, so he had no choice but to wear makeups to cover the whole face and show the best part of him in front of the world.

What's wrong with that?


He is a superstar.
Just like Elvis Presley, the Beatles, and all those greats in the history...




But to me, he is greater.

He loves childen.

Have you heard of his song - Childhood?

He lost his childhood while he was busy recording every successful album and was terrified all the time when his father holding a belt in hands watching he and his brothers practicing.



So he built the Neverland, an amusement park that is for every poor child that needed help.

But in the end, people judged him with ignorance.
And some evil children betrayed him for money.






There's a lot I wanna say to you for Michael's sake.
To help him, for the tinest bit, let others know, HE IS THE GREATEST ARTIST WHO HAS BEEN MISUNDERSTOOD THE MOST.


I'm not saying he is perfect.
He is strange in some ways, but is truly innocent.
He just did things at his will no matter others take it or not.

You know what, I support his behavior.




I don't know how to fully express my regret and sadness.
uhhhhh I just can't stop crying everytime when I see his greatness.





His love for the world
His love for everything






We are sad because you leave, Michael.
We miss you so much.





We love you because we know what kind of person you are.
We know what you have done to help others.




We lost you.
We can never get you back.





Our Peter Pan is nowhere to be found on this land.
But he will always live in our hearts, our memories, our history, our generation.










Truly, he is, and will always be a great man that worth looking up to.




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“I’m just like anyone. I cut and I bleed. And I embarrass easily.” – Michael Jackson

“The meaning of life is contained in every single expression of life. It is present in the infinity of forms and phenomena that exist in all of creation.” – Michael Jackson

“Yeah, Wacko Jacko, where did that come from? Some English tabloid. I have a heart and I have feelings. I feel that when you do that to me. It’s not nice.” – Michael Jackson

“Just because it’s in print doesn’t mean it’s the gospel.” – Michael Jackson

“And I remember going to the record studio and there was a park across the street and I’d see all the children playing and I would cry because it would make me sad that I would have to work instead.” – Michael Jackson

“I’m never pleased with anything, I’m a perfectionist, it’s part of who I am.” – Michael Jackson

“The greatest education in the world is watching the masters at work.” – Michael Jackson

“People write negatives things, cause they feel that’s what sells. Good news to them, doesn’t sell.” – Michael Jackson

“I love my family very much. I wish I could see them a little more often than I do. But we understand because we’re a show business family and we all work.” – Michael Jackson

“I wake up from dreams and go “Wow, put this down on paper.” The whole thing is strange. You hear the words, everything is right there in front of your face.” - Michael Jackson

“Because I think every child star suffers through this period because you’re not the cute and charming child that you were. You start to grow, and they want to keep you little forever.” – Michael Jackson

“And my goal in life is to give to the world what I was lucky to receive: the ecstasy of divine union through my music and my dance.” – Michael Jackson

“If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.” – Michael Jackson










See how many people love you.






I love you so much Michael, I promise I will go see you in the neverland one day.
I swear.


I miss you my friend.



Annie






Check this website out.

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/weiwei90baby

C'mon it's summer, you are free.
Get to know this great person.
And you will know what the world lost.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

我在夢裡

而我需要找到我真正想追求的東西




自己的不足
自己的無趣
自己的平凡



都被夢園裡的理想遮住了



想的太大太美好
夢的太美太虛幻



我一直在看著夢裡的我





但是
真正的張瑜安呢?



擁抱著滿滿幸福
卻從沒想過哪天失去了一分一毫
該用什麼來填補





都已經快18了
我必須擔起責任



才能跨越那條界線



責任有多重我毫無頭緒
到底該怎樣做我不知道






可能就能稱之為青澀


但我清楚的知道
是時候了


不管眼皮有多麼沉重
家人的呵護是多麼難以割捨










該醒來了

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

缺口

小說裡少了被賜死的角色
就是不完整


一天少了一點外文
就是不完整


搖滾界少了
James Brown&Robert Plamer&Michael Jackson
就是不完整




James Brown & Robert Plamer "I feel good"




Michael Jackson






星期六的聚會少了某些人
就是不完整


考完指考的生活
就是不完整


生活中少了照表抄課
就是不完整








原來生活中要有明確的目標才算是完整

原來少了你們我竟是如此失落





原來我的生活
需要的東西竟然這麼多




曾經一直存在的
霎時間都被抽走了






我  好茫然啊









Annie





p.s.


to Sylvia Hong
Joe Jonas - Single Lady






It's just sooooo freaking funny, lol!!